#30BraveDays Mid-Run Recap

in which nothing much happened
By April 15, 2014 self-improvement, writing

© Arriane Serafico, Wanderrgirl

At the beginning of the month, I embarked on a journey towards a braver self. At least for the next 30 days. Arriane of Wanderrgirl started #30BraveDays in an attempt to coax out some of the courage that’s nestled deep within people, courage that’s often tamped out by the often much louder fears.

I started out at the beginning of the month (my post is here) and I wanted to do a weekly update. 30 days aren’t divisible by a week or seven days, though, so I decided on a 15-day recap instead. Since starting this challenge, I’ve made a few discoveries about myself.

It’s kind of sad to think about it, but I said I’d write about it, so here goes.


I’ve always been the kind of person who thinks up grand plans, but cowers at the first sign of struggle. I don’t know if it’s because I was raised in an environment of comfort, or if it’s because I don’t want to disappoint other people with what I want, or if it’s because I pre-empt a possible failure with the idea of a guaranteed bust. I jump the gun in the worst way, which actually means that I don’t even bother shooting at all. I aim but I don’t pull the trigger. I’m so sure that the bullet will land way off the mark, and sometimes I think that my brain feels like it’s better to not even try at all.

On Day Three, I went to a talk for further studies, and I ended up thinking about all of the opportunities and plans I let slip because I just couldn’t be bothered to follow through. And that’s sad. I am guilty of thinking things like “It’s not going to happen anyway,” and this defeatist in me makes it so hard for me to find a way to make things happen instead of giving up mid-way or even before I start.

To my credit, I do push through with some things, but it’s often the things that have a more or less high success rate. If it’s a thing that’s likely to succeed, then I’m on board. I think that a lot of the time that I’ve put myself out on a limb or risked, I got burnt and my immediate reaction in the face of challenges is to recoil. And that’s not bravery at all.


Another thing I’ve confronted with this challenge is the fact that I am scared of way too many things. I don’t think I used to be this way… it’s kind of scary how much a person can change without even realizing it. But, insofar as I’ve gained courage in some parts of my life, I think I’ve lost a lot of it, too. I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again: I am way too concerned about what other people think of me. And that’s a crappy way to live.

My first fifteen days of “bravery” are, to my eyes, kind of pitiful. In my last post, I asserted that many people are different, and fear is relative, as is bravery. While this is true, I don’t want to be the kind of person who is afraid of everything. Great risks come with great payoffs. Or great failures. It’s almost always a 50-50 thing, and I think I want to be on the side that believes in Making It.

Here’s what I’ve been up to so far, if you’re curious:

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The Writer Tag

In which I write about writing
By April 8, 2014 writing

I got tagged by Bea of The Dalaga Project to do this tag! I don’t think I’ve answered m/any tags—or as we used to call them, “memes”—on Nothing Spaces. Which is weird because I used to be a compulsive tag answerer back in Multiply’s heyday.


The Writer Tag is part of Bea’s “Writing Week,” which is not going to be the case here. This is a one-time deal. I think.

1. What type of writing do you do?

A bulk of words I write go into blogs or useless tweets, but as a “professional” writer, I work on different types of features and articles, specifically for a broadsheet (The Philippine Star!). I joined the Saturday section, Supreme, as a contributing editor, but sometimes I also write for places like Young Star, as well as magazines, though I haven’t done that in a while.

I used to write fiction. I’d like to think that I still do; I’m just on a hiatus.

2. What genres and/or topics do you write about?

For fiction, it’s usually YA or coming-of-age stuff.

For anything else, it’s usually a non-fiction article with a personal slant and a dash of self-deprecating “”humor.”"

3. How long have you been writing?

I grew up as a Reader and Writer, so I’d like to say “ever since I could remember.” I kept a diary and had atrocious grammar, but I’ve been writing for a while. Also, I was a shitty artist as a kid.

4. Are you published?


5. What was the first story you ever wrote?

LOL a rip-off of C.S. Lewis’ “The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe” but just with different things to replace the 3 nouns in the title.

6. Why do you write?

Because I love books and reading. Because I can’t not do it.

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March 2014 Favorites

in which i try to remember which things made last month awesome
By April 5, 2014 finding things

So, this is something that I’m trying to do more consistently, too. Just because sharing is caring, and it’s nice to see what you ended up loving so much at one point in your life.

March Faves - 1

I haven’t been reading much, but I re-devoured Neil Gaiman’s The Sandman series, which I loaded onto my iPad. I’ve already read until A Game of You. The app I use is called Comic Zeal, which was recommended to me by Sarie.

I’ve also been loving my Lomo Diana Baby. Ever since I found a place that would take in my 110 exposures, I’ve been loving bringing this little camera around. Of course, I’ve got my Field Notes here, too. This is the one I’ve currently cracked open, and it was the Colors edition that went out last winter called “Cold Horizon.”

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Neptune, Revisited: A Quasi-Review of the Veronica Mars Movie

in which I'm unsure if you would trust the opinions of a Duncan-lover
By April 4, 2014 films, television, TV & Film Reviews, Uncategorized


I’ve been sitting on this review of the Veronica Mars Movie for a while now, and it’s mostly because I went on a short trip and I had to take care of work stuff before that, when it was the most opportune time to do so. However, I have to keep reminding myself that “late reactions” don’t necessarily mean that opinions are invalid and irrelevant. Just late.

This will also be chock-full of spoilers. You have been warned.

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One Day in Kyoto

in which we take the scenic route
By April 3, 2014 photography, travel

My folks originally just wanted to go to Tokyo and Osaka, but we managed to convince them that Kyoto was worth a visit. We wanted to squeeze in Nara, too, but that wouldn’t leave much time for Osaka exploring anymore. In any case, these are the photos from Kyoto on our full day there. We left pretty early in the day because we wanted to be back in Osaka (for more exploring) at a reasonable hour. Plus, our flight was at 9:50 a.m. the next day.



I think there are three lines that go to Kyoto from Osaka—JR, Hankyu, and the Shinkansen or bullet train—correct me if I’m wrong. We rode the Hankyu line from the Umeda station and headed straight towards Arashiyama, which is on the left side of Kyoto. We had a hard time narrowing down which places to visit, since there is an abundance of that in Kyoto, but we ended up picking Arashiyama, which I’ve never been to before, because of the bamboo forest/path, the Gion area because geishas, and Fushimi Inari-taisha, making our way across Kyoto from left to right, then back to Osaka by about 4 p.m.

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Tokyo, Briefly: Part II

in which I tell you all about everything else we did in Tokyo
By April 2, 2014 photography, travel

Two travel posts in a row? Pat me on the back, and thank the smart-alecky anon who asked if s/he was going to wait another year for these photos to resurface. Joke’s on you! If you missed the first part of this Tokyo segment, click here. Ahem.

And on the third day, we walked ourselves to the point of passing out. We went to a lot of places, but I wasn’t able to take many photos as I was navigating! Somehow, I ended up with almost twice as much pictures as the last post. To be fair, I have photographs of Day 4 and the Tokyo half of Day 5, aka our last day, here, too.

Because we went to so many places, I’ll be briefly describing each part so you kind of know what’s going on. I might as well be helpful, yes? Just a little.

Asakusa & Senso-ji: We had no idea where to go, really, so the previous night, we asked Steph what she thought we could do and she made us a route. We skipped over Tokyo Sky Tree, which we could see from this area anyway. Senso-ji is the oldest temple in Tokyo, and to get there from the station, you enter a gate type thing that’s lined with stalls, kind of like a market. Steph said that it was sort of a tradition to wave the incense smoke from one of the offering places towards you, kind of like welcoming good fortune (for health and wealth~). Asakusa reminded me a little of Kyoto, near the Gion area.








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